Another Day down

Ok so last night I spent an hour writing on here and it got lost right as im posting it!!! Yes it took that long cause I had the little one besides me and she was cuddling so much I couldnt just keep typing away!!! So here I am trying again. Its been a long day for me we didnt have cable cause of the stupid company!!! I didnt realize how much we depended on the DVR and cable all together. I have a routine down pretty good with my baby. So when it came nap time and no mickey mouse clubhouse it was hard to get her to lay down with me. It was so quite in our house today too without the tv. If we arent watching a show for down time than its on the music channel. We dont have a radio I usually use the computer but my husband had used it and it was on our room. If I go in there during the day it has to be when hes up or the little ones down. She follows me and wakes the hubby up! So we did a lot of playing and my bum is sore, n back hurts from being on the floor so much today. I think the teething is back again, she has been cutting teeth either 4 or 6 at a time and she hasnt had any come thru n a couple weeks (heaven) so now the cranky baby is back. I hate it cause its so hard to please her, I try to keep in mind that she is in pain but sometimes i just cant keep it together without loosing it. I try to be the best mom I can be but some days are better than others. Plus being preggers doesnt help with no sleep and a cranky baby. I know I try not to use this as my excuse but some days its true. I would NEVER EVER hurt my child. I just walk away and try to breathe which by the way really doesnt work all that well. I just try to read my book to distract myself or I will just ignore her and go to the bathroom to vent. I hate days like that I live for the good days with my daughter, which in turn gets me thru the bad days. I love her so much, its crazy to think how old she is now and how I feel like tomorrow I will be dropping her off to school. Everyone I know has someone they are letting go for the first time and it is starting to scare me. I will miss her so much. I am so thankful and lucky to be able to stay home with my children. Its such a blessing, but I dread the time I have to let them go. I can not home school them I cant teach like that Ive tried so that idea is gone and I cant stay with her forever. I dont know why I am freaking out I have 3-4 years!!! I just hate how fast they go by, even though I want them to so this next baby is out of me lol. I miss being able to look good in clothes its been forever for me it seems. Well at least with this pregnancy I havent eaten everything in site! I have been very good plus keeping up with a toddler and trying to eat everything just doesnt happen. Well its getting late here and i really need to get some sleep since the little ones down and Miss Emma (new baby) is settling down too, I need to take advantage!!!

1st Blog Ever

Well I am new at this and thought I would start something new in my life. I am a mother of 1 right now and one on the way. I have been a wife for 2yrs now and known my husband for about 16 yrs. We have been through a lot in our life together. Lots of ups and downs since we first started dating in 2003, we finally married in 2008. We have moved three times in the last two years of being married. We first started our new relationship in Hershey,PA. We were just dating than and he got a job offer outside of Hershey, PA. He had just retired from the Army and wanted to do something along the same lines as he did in the service. There was not a lot to offer him in our home town of Ohio. From there we got married and had our first child, a little girl. The reason he retired so early from the service was due to an injury. In this time period we have seen plenty of doctors to do the surgery he needed and finally found one. After a year and half of living in PA we had to move home and live with family. He had the surgery and was off work for 6 months without much of a paycheck. I was a stay at home mom so there was no income from me and he couldn't stay home to watch her after having major back surgery. So from there we have moved to another state down south for the same work he did before. We now live in Alabama, good old south! We love it and hate lol... its so hot and humid compared to what we are used to. I think I have caught you up to speed on where we are now. I am still a stay at home mom and another baby on the way due in November this year. Well I think that will be all for my first blog! Talk to you all SOON!!!