WANT

I really want things to end and start again. I want my hubby to find a better job that he is happy bout. I also want my grandpa to either get better or be in no more pain. I dont want him to die I just dont like that he is in so much pain. This isnt my grandpa at all, I hate that I cant be there for my mother either. Being so far away stinks so much, I mean dont get me wrong I love that I we are away we work as a family so much better than we are in around old friends n family back home. I want this baby to come out too, well I want her to be healthy and come out when she needs to but she is making life so hard for me right now. My 1st child never ever made me this uncomfy, the baby gets in these weird places and doenst move and she HATES HATES when I lie down. I mean I have to lie down on my side nt my back but she hates it, so i have to lie down at this angle that sucks its more like sitting up. I know I wont get more sleep when shes here but atleast I know I could find a comfy spot lol. Plus I want a dog that comes already trained! My hubbys dog just got up on the couch and peed everywhere. He has been doing so good so I made he suffer outside today and he wil come in when i go to bed so im sure tom he will punish me for that but I dont really care I dont think I can look at him right now. I havent had any sleep in the last day or so n either has my daughter so its a cranky house and that is the last thing that I wana deal with. My daughter and I are tired of each other lol. Im ready for some sleep cause I need to get a few more things done tom and shop for some new clothes for her. I have to get things ready so if my grandpa passes soon I am not stressing on getting things ready fo rus to leave. I know that it wont be good to deal with and having a 13-14 hour drive in being this far preggers isnt a good thing. There isnt a lot of hospitals on the way home lol. Well I think that is all I am going to write tonight i am going to try and get my daughter to sleep so I can go take a long bath and go to bed so excited for it lol...