Remembering who I am

Well I have had a hard time still remembering who I am. Im not talking about being a mom or wife. I am trying to remember who I am as an individual. It is very hard to get time for me. I try in the evenings and I will catch up on shows or read or do my nails. I dont remember what I did before I was a wife or mother. I dont regret being any  of those I love it and feel like it was what I was suppose to do. What I am talking about is meeting with friends without kids or getting my hair done and nails and shopping by myself. I miss spoiling myself lol... I know my kids come first and I have no problem with that. In fact when I shop I always shop for them I love spoiling my kids like I was when I was young. I am trying to find a babysitter that lives close but having a hard time trusting anyone. I kinda miss being me, again I love my kids. I am trying to find a balance so there is still a me and I dont let me go and than when kids are in I dont know what or who I am. I was wondering if anyone could share advise on how they dont forget about themselves while being a wife and mother? Well kids are awake now so back to the duties lol

Time Change

So my daily routine usually start at 5-530 am. I wake up and workout for either 30-60min depends on what I feel like than I enjoy my coffee or get ready for the day than enjoy my coffee!!! Well since the time change I havent got to work out and my body is so confused. Im so tired and not in the mood to do anything. It doesnt help that I get up and my children are up shortly after. I have tried to let them go to bed late and tried to move dinner back before this time change. I thought I was going to beat it this year instead I feel like I went 20 steps back lol. Kids are cranky Im cranky its been a long week and its on wed!!! Thankfully hubby has friday off  for veterans  day so maybe we can try together to get this family back to our routine. My girl thrive when we are on a routine. Im not a mom where exactly at 12 oclock we eat lunch n u better be asleep by 1. I am flexible because not everyday is the same. Dinner is really the only thing that stays on time 530-6 which follows bath, pick up time and reading than a movie for bed time. The rest of the day is basic stuff but still routine when nap time is cause they get cranky around the same time everyday I just dont have breakfast and lunch  or snacks all at the same time. Or when play time outside is or craft time. I know I am probably totally off subject here its early and my mind is doing its racing for the morning. Sorry so back to time change exactly why do we have to do this we just get use to the time to change to to lose sleep its a crazy cycle that Im beginning to think I will never understand or have the hand up on... well until next time lol mommy out lol

Sat night

Well today was a good day. I got up before my daughter and got to have the house to myself. I read the new Tori Spelling book (which is really addicting gossip but not lol) in peace and quite, no child yelling, dogs fighting or tv on. I miss the schedule me and my daughter was on. She wouldnt get up until 8 am and I would get up and shower and get ready at 630 and have time to myself. Now I just want to sleep since I dont get much at night now. I dont remember being this tired in the last trimester with my daughter. I guess that happens with running around and not being able to break whenever and nap! I got my carpets cleaned today I love the kirby sweeper its awesome I feel like our home is clean now. Well besides when i let the dogs in, this red dirt down south sucks. I never thought it would make such a mess in the house. I can sweep the tile floors all day long and its still dirty. I really miss our old life in PA. Well I mean I still want the new baby and all that I guess I just miss the place. I have always lived up north and thought the south would be nice and so did my husband. Well we are finding out quick that its not what we thought it would be at all. We miss the mountains, and fall was our favorite season, leaves changing, cooler weather, fire pits, and football ofcourse. Well I dont think we will have any of that down here, besides FOOTBALL!!!  Im really starting to miss home today. Its more because my grandpa that I am very close with is going down hill with cancer pretty fast. We dont know how long he has and the doctor really doesnt want me traveling. She didnt say no,but just weighed the risks for us. My husband is trying to save up time at work for when the baby comes incase there is unexpected emergency and he needs to take some time. We dont have family or friends around here that we can ask to help. The only bad thign about being so far away but good at the same time lol. Plus my cousin that I am really close to is pregnant too and she is moving into her first house together with her boyfriend and I miss her a lot. We are so close and she was getting close to my daughter and we are both having little girls and I want them to grow up together and know each other, and I want to spoil her daughter like she has mine ( good and bad) I really miss my husband too. Since he is on third shift we dont really get to spend a lot of time together. He tries to stay up wo spend time with us on the weekends when he doesnt have to work (which he doenst get paid for, downside to salary) which i love but sometimes sucks cause hes tired so hes cranky. I never thought sleeping alone every night and not seeing him would be so hard. Its more like having a room mate. At first I liked it cause I was taking really good care of myself and didnt feel bad that when lexi (my daughter) went to bed I went and took a hot bath relaxed and pampered myself. When hes home I tried to spend time with him, so this was different thought I would like it more. The newness has worne off lol.  So I guess Im getting to that emotional state in my pregnancy, everything is so depressing some days and some days im on cloud nine.
The good thing that has happened to me the last few days is that I have started a plan for me. I want a chanellnge for me in life. I mean being a mother is a reward, but I want something that I can achieve in a different way. I made a list of things I want to do in life. Not like a bucket list, but things that I have wanted to accomplish before I was married and some now that I am married and a mother. So that has put me in a good mood when I work on that. Plus the other good thing is that right now is nite nite time and my daughter is cuddling with me on the couch. I love these moments in the day, she is growing so fast, and now with another one coming I dont want to lose these moments with her or let her forget these either. Might sound crazy but I never want any of my kids to ever forget that I love them and want to cuddle with them. I want the loving kids lol, I know you cant choose them but I want to make them that way lol. Well I think I have said enough for today, and I really want to just cuddle now and love on her. Who knew you could love someone like this right, being a mother is AWESOME!!!

Coupons

I am trying really hard to do this coupon thing. Where I shop they only take one coupon per item. I have  been reading blogs and researching but never seem to get very far. I dont really wana buy coupons I feel like Im not getting the coupons I would really us for the money i spent on them. I have been instead reading blogs or websites on how to use products I have a t my house to do  cleaning and misc things. Trying to save these cleaning products are intense. The main things that I cant find a substitute for is my granite counter tops and hard wood floors. I want my floors to shine and be protected and there isnt much cheap or make ur own products lol as well as for my counter tops. I hae found a lot of useful tips for my dishwasher,bathroom,laundry. I also have this laundry detergent I use that I only have to buy once maybe twice out of the whole year and there is 4 of us and I can use it in my front loaders. Well I need to get to dinner leftovers tonight!!! If u have any tips please let me know...

im back

Well its been awhile cause we have finally moved again  n both girls had tubes put in there ears.Its been crazy round here. Finally get back to a routine and finally feeling normal again. Trying to gear up for the holiday season that is about to begin. I know a lot of people have already began shopping or are finished. Well I tried again this year to start ahead and failed. I cant keep the presents hidden. I need to shop for them andhave someone else hold them! I give n nd give them, I am horrible bout this I cant help it. I just love when i find the perfect gift and I cant hold it in. im so proud that i kept it a secert and i just want to see there face when they open it. So last min shopping for me again maybe one day i will learn.
Trying to get use to the idea that we wont be moving in  a year (god willing)  is hard to do. I always put things off to deep clean cause we have never been in a house for very long and it was nver mie. I know that makes mesound horrible i cared what our rentals looked like but neer cared to wash walls n wash woodwork all the time. I got my fridge  and washer  dryer set I have been wanting forever thanks to my hubby. Hoping he gets me an ipad for my bday\xmas since our daughter tooks almost all the keys off out laptop,so hard to type. Well I am goin to try to be better and blog more gotta run now fixing something new for dnner